Sounds like your parents, and mother in particular suffered from (and still do?) mental illnesses, no? I mean, to me it sounds like a situation that should have been removedd up on by adults, teachers, etc, that would see you, see what you looked like, how you behaved, what you were eating… That’s not normal, period. I’m sorry for you having to go through all that. I thought I had it bad, but at least I had a nice home to come to